Today I am feeling like I need some 'mama wisdom'. It is always the cry of my heart to do what is absolutely best for my hubby and kiddos. I love serving them by making a home that has meals prepared, bills paid, sheets changed, clothes washed, pictures scrapbooked, gifts bought, books read...etc (the real stuff that has to get done by someone) . A home that is peaceful and a blessing. On the flip side of all that is my personal longing to teach again--not just my own kiddos but in a professional setting. I long to get up in the morning and have a reason to wear real people clothes (not just yoga pants), and accomplish a task that is measurable. Motherhood is the most important job on the planet (and the highest of callings, in my opinion) but in the day to day grind of motherhood is scraping dried macaroni off of the heater vent, wiping pee-pee from the bathroom floor , washing the same shirt 3 times to get a stain out (with Zout and Oxi-clean), and cleaning moldy bath toys. Somehow those things don't feel like such a high calling in the moment. Are you tracking me?
I am feeling especially torn and confused as to what to do with all these feelings (besides the obvious answer of giving them to the Lord). I want to feel truly content with wherever the Lord has me...home, working part-time...I just don't know. What to do, what to do...
"If any of you lacks wisdom let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach...."
3 months ago