Thursday, July 16, 2009

One Weary Mama....

I come before you today as ONE WEARY MAMA! I honestly feel like I'm at the end of my mommy rope. My kids are driving me bananas and I truly don't appreciate much about them today. I am tired...tired of attitudes, tired of complaints and tired of poop. I don't want to make grilled cheese or cut the crust off of anybody's sandwich. I don't feel much like doing laundry or searching for blankies. I don't feel that bad when a finger is squished in a drawer and I can't figure out how to kid-proof anything else in our house. Today I am weary...truly weary. I would quit my job and walk out if the Lord had given me that option. I feel so drained and defeated. I love it when I feel inspired and filled with joy, but today isn't one of those days. I write all of this not as a downer but as the truth. I know we all face tough days when mamahood is harder than we wish...and I don't want to hide those days. They are as real as the amazing days when I feel as though I conquered the world with three darling kiddos in perfectly matched outfits. Part of the parenting journey is admitting that some days are tougher than others! Praise the Lord that we aren't alone. Blessings!

"Remember the words to Your servant, In which You have made me hope. This is my comfort in my affliction, That Your word has revived me." Psalm 119:49-50

"A man of too many friends comes to ruin, But there is a friend who sticks closer than a brother." Proverbs 18:24

7 comments:

Rebecca Ragan said...

My Dear Friend and Fellow Momma, Tara, You are such an amazing mom and inspiration. Hang in there today. I had one of those days yesterday, and it took me all day to dig out of my funk. Thank goodness a little prayer and the Lord's blessing made today a whole lot better in my mommy world. All the best to you. Hold your head up high!!!

Coleson & Tate said...

Youre an amazing mama! Thank the Lord for the blessing to be one! Hang in there, these days come and go, and thankfully, they do indeed GO! :) I will pray you wake up refreshed in the morning.


(p.s I never cut Coleson's crust off and dont have blankies to search for...maybe it's just one of those days you dont either! ;) )

Robyn said...

Ah, thanks for your fantastic honesty. It's nice to have someone else put into words what I feel far too often! You are one sweet, fantastic mama... who deserves a short break-down from time-to-time. So long as you remember not to let it last! Tomorrow is a fantastic new day!

Anonymous said...

Praying for you. I remember those days, we all have them. I remember wishing there was some where to "put them away" for a few hours so I could renew. God will renew you, he always does. You are an amazing mom, I see it in the posts and pictures. Sit today with a cup of coffee, forget about the laundry and all - just look at the kiddos for a while. You will find God there.

Mike and Mindy Roth said...

If only were weren't consumed by such guilt on those days when we would rather ship our kids off to someone else. I always know it has nothing to do with Jaycoby, but that I am just having an "off" day. We're allowed to have off days :-). Good for you for being honest about it and not putting on a facade about being the perfect mommy all the time. Hopefully you were able to enjoy your time after the kids were in bed that day. Those types of days always call for early bedtimes at my house :-).

Brandi said...

Sending you great big hugs Tara.

Kim said...

Sweet Tara...I LOVED your post! I laughed all the way through, then read it out loud to my aunt who is in town visiting. We cracked up! YES! Been there on several different occassions. Those days are the worst. Thank goodness for the other awesome, and wonderful days! I love checking your blog. Sure would love to see you again sometime when we make it back up that way. Take care of you!